Just to point out the irony I see here...
It seems like you are basing your worries of being seen as a "voice" of the purg on the commentary of a single person, as though that person is the voice of all the other posters and lurkers. If someone wants to place undue or unwanted significance on your words, none of us can stop her, but you shouldn't worry that you're somehow in control of (or dominating) the entire community. I think a great deal of the conflict going on there is worry that a bunch of us are too open with expressing opinions, and as one of those opinionated people you have had the poor luck to be chosen as a sort of poster child for the sentiment...or at least that's how I see it.

Personally I am of the opinion that if someone is seeing you as some intimidating matriarch, it's because she's misinterpreting the motivation behind your words. And outspoken people are often intimidating to others simply because it seems that someone must have a great deal of self confidence in order to stand up for their own thoughts and opinions. And I wouldn't be surprised if at least a portion of the intimidation factor comes from the fact that you're a grown woman who has accomplished a lot in her life despite being disordered (whether you see it that way or not), and a lot of us are girls floundering in a sea of "I'm so pathetic, I have nothing in my life, what the hell do I do now," thus inspiring a teensy bit of jealousy.

And hell, I know I enjoy it when people notice me, or listen to me, or think of me as the boss. It's intimidating, yeah, as though you're somehow responsible for how the people who follow you are thinking and acting, but something of a power rush, too.

I'm feeling exceptionally verbose today, but I think I'll shut up now.

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You're so cool...that was much needed insight. Basically I'm an egomaniac with a raging inferiority complex. Somebody slap me...

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I would slap you, but I'm afraid that one or both of us would enjoy it way too much.

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try to think of yourself as our wizened sage. . .

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Wizened sounds too much like withered...;)

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then you can be our hot young sage :P

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this dentist (locum) that i've been working with (he is a rude pig) asked me what my excuse for looking pregnant was... IN FRONT OF A PATIENT.

so i've been waiting. and today i was paying him out for drinking green tea but then eating three pieces of cake (he actually IS fat) and later, in front of a patient, he was saying how he is making sure of his longevity, and that the girls here tease him for drinking green tea, that we think he is eccentric. i said (in front of the patient), 'no, we don't say eccentric, we say EGOCENTRIC. so there you go old mate, your hearings going too.'

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

this has nothing to do with your post except that you said egocentirc. and it's a funny story i thought i'd share with you.

btw miss frieda, you're not the boss of me. you are simply a sometimes wonderfully grounding influence on my life that i don't take seriously enough.

i love you but don't idolise you.

so put THAT in your pipe and smoke it. HAH.

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