I missed you, and don't worry about school! I and everybody else knows that you are ridiculously brilliant. I personally, am not worried about you one bit. The losing weight thing you might want to watch, because you really have no weight to lose if you ask me. You don't want to get sick and then have to take a break from school and then come back, that would be awful!
Anyways, I hope everything is going perfectly in all other aspects of your life, and I was starting to worry about you so thank you for posting!

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Jenni! Thank you for that sweet reply. I've been a horrible friend because i haven't talked to you since your surgery. How are you feeling? Are you still going to school this semester? I'm so sorry about the troubles at home too, you don't need any added drama. I think about you and your mom a lot and I hope you are well. ((((((big hugs)))))))

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Everything is as fine as fine can be. My surgery went amazing, everything is going smoothly in that areana. Incisions are nice and clean, no pain, and I have already lost 12 pounds in 8 days! My mom and I are doing fine also, we got over it pretty quickly. I don't know. We are such a great team together that when something happens we have become very good about just picking up the pieces and moving on. She is so strong, I really look up to her.
It is nice to know that you think about me! I too think about you and your daughter all the time! Not so much your husband though, don't know why. LOL!
I hope to hear more from you in the near future!
♥

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oooh don't worry about comments love, i know things are frantic with you right now...and will be for a while to come, right? just take a few minutes a day to breathe ok?
love you

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I will be emailing you soon....don't YOU forget to breathe either.

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yeah, don't worry about comments, sugar. life is crazy, and doesn't always allow for things like that.
i think if you lose a pound a day, you will die around when your body can't do anything anymore. like live.

oh man, i know about what your husband's dealing with. i used to work construction, and working like mad in crazy heat times just takes a whole lot out of you. be should be alright. as long as he's staying hydrated he should be alright. i've certainly come home like that before.
loves.

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ok he needs to drink ridiculous amounts of water. like whoa. it's over 95 degrees out there sister

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I just feel so guilty because this is the first time in 14 years of marriage that i haven't had a job...or two. He wants me to concentrate on school and our kid and the household.....But I hate that he has to work so hard.

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aw baby it's ok. i'm sure you've done more than your share before

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there's fat bashing and an abundance of people who are all " waaah I ate 800 calories today" or "yeah, if I eat more than 750 I feel gross" I don't know... I eat a pretty normal amount of food. OK not normal, but more than that and I was okay with it and now I am rethinking it... ugh. no I'm not. I'm ignoring them.

Getting text books and school suppplies was my favorite thing about school. Every year around this time I go to Staples and gaze longingly at all the binders and pens and pencil cases... sigh.

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I'm so beyond normal, but I refuse to get into that minimal calorie counting rut. Either because I'm in serious denial, or because I think I'm somehow ABOVE it. Oh yes, I'm one of those superior bulimics, don't you wish you were me. ;)

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Hey, if you ever feel gross, think of me at Klarman, eating three meals and two snacks a day, totalling over 2250 calories at least. And I'm told that's "normal." :) So carry on with the ignoring.
I'm kind of glad I haven't checked that community lately. (Just doesn't feel right looking at sites like that from the computer room of an inpatient facility, though they don't seem technically savvy enough to even know to check the history.)

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Hey sweetie, how are you doing? Better you're not cruising the purg right now, probably counter-productive. I hope you do well!

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I'm doing pretty well, I've been on "chair rest" for the past 5 or so days, which means that I'm supposed to sit as much as humanly possible and exert myself the bare minimum since I haven't been "on projection" regarding weight gain. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to, eating 2500 calories a day and not compensating in any way, but my metabolism seems to have made a rapid recovery so my weight is going up some days and down on others and I'm not gaining the .5lb/day that I'm supposed to. So that's a little irritating, because you can't apply for any privileges while on chair rest so I've been here over a week and still haven't been able to get off bathroom supervision and staff-supervised tables (the bottom rung of the privilege ladder here.) Otherwise things are decent. It's scary, and I'm worried about my ability to keep it up when I'm out of here, but for now it's actually a relief to not have any control whatsoever over eating/not eating and no possible way to purge. And I'm meeting a lot of great girls.
Have you started nursing school yet?

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I've spoken to you over email, but I just wanted to rant on the purg. There seems to be a few different 'types' of people... not sure if it comes down to how long they've suffered from EDs or their knowledge/observance/recognition of their own symptoms or what... but there are the pro-mia type people (generally the fat-bashers), and then the pro-binge-food people (who annoy me because there's nothing I hate more than food/binging, I find it disgusting and shameful, and so I feel like they embarrass me as a bulimic... but that's probably my screwed-up-ness as much as theirs)... then there are the people who speak about their suffering in an intelligent and helpful way, or promote discussion (which is what ED communities are fantastic for).

I don't really care for reading all about people's diets or b-foods or days in a community, unless it's relevant to discussion (eg. "does anyone else do this?" type of thing), as much as I do care about the members, I'd rather see it in their journals and not have to fish through 25,000 posts to find one that's relevant to my eating disorder...

Anyway, that's MY rant, in YOUR journal. The world, unfortunately, tends to be a fat-bashing place. It's sad, too... because so many of the 'bigger' body shapes are so gorgeous (cough, my eating disoder mind says "but not on me")... Like I said, when the 'right' time comes, get your daughter and her friends into that book I told you about... and whatever you do, try to make them media literate (that book will help), so they don't get suckered into that 'thin is good' mentality.

For your husband... maybe cut up some oranges, freeze them, and place them in an insulated container for him to eat during work. It will refresh him and replenish his blood sugar at the same time. He definitely needs a LOT of water, like perfxctd said... but he also needs electrolites, so mix up a bit of gatorade for him as well (mostly water, but also gatorade). It will help with his stamina. Working so hard under those conditions can be compared to heavy-duty exercise, so conceptualise it that way.

Oh, and isn't this an essay! Can you tell I like to talk?

xoxoxo

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